I just wanted to start this post off with a little disclaimer: this is not meant to be a rant.
Truthfully, I’ve wanted to take a little break from my blog for a while now, but I felt that I constantly needed to be producing content in order to remain relevant. So, I decided to take a week off. Since it was the holidays and I wanted to spend time with my loved ones, I figured it was the perfect timing. I know a week-long break might not seem like a lot to most people, but for me – it was so needed.
If you’re curious, here’s why I needed a little break:
Reason One: Instagram was ruining my life.
If you’ve read almost any blog within the past couple of months, you’ll likely know that the Instagram algorithm has changed. When Instagram first started, posts were visible on your feed according to chronological order of posting times. You just had to post a photo around the right time of day and it would basically be guaranteed that you would get a certain amount of likes. Since then, Instagram has changed drastically. With issues like shadow-banning, the massive amounts of sponsored posts slipping into your feed and comment pods, it’s actually very difficult these days to organically grow your following. With all of these pressures and things I needed to think about every time I posted, it actually stressed me out a lot. There was just a lot of social media pressures that Instagram was feeding into and was therefore making me really unhappy. It wasn’t about making creative content any more – and it became just a numbers game.
Reason Two: I was starting to be really hard on myself.
If a photo didn’t do well, or if a blog post didn’t get as many comments as the last one, I would furiously be working my butt off to try to ensure that I would do better next time. Now, there’s nothing wrong with re-evaluating how tactical you’re being when it comes to having your blog and Instagram as your side-hustle – however, once you start being more self-conscious and self-critical then you are being creative, that’s when it becomes an issue. Every photo that was taken of me, I thought it could be better. The angle wasn’t perfect and my face wasn’t quite right. Every product photo that I took felt like a struggle. I was trying to be more and more creative without my photos becoming too much of a brand-sell, but they still felt too posed. Every post I wrote felt like so much work, when I used to really love writing. I had never really been a person who had been hard on myself before, but all of a sudden now I was stressing myself out over the smallest things and being creative was becoming more and more difficult.
Reason Three: I was just plain exhausted.
Ever since I started my blog last year, I’ve produced content at least once a week – and this isn’t including the constant creation of content I was simultaneously doing for my Instagram. At first, I started writing two blog posts a week. After six months, I scaled it down to one post a week. For the week leading up to Christmas, I had a post every single weekday. That’s five posts in one week. And trust me, it was pretty difficult to feel creative at that point. Even though I had spaced out my writing, by the end of the week, I was pretty exhausted with all of the writing, photo editing, commenting and upkeep that many people don’t realize a blog needs. I used to check in on my blog at least twice a day. Once to keep up with comments and the second time would be to set up future posts. Always checking-in made me feel like I just wanted to curl up into a ball at the end of the day and not speak to anyone else.
So, for my own personal sanity – I took a break. I slept a lot. I spent time with friends and my boyfriend. I binged on Netflix shows and I stayed away from hours wasted on social media (well, as much as I could). And it was wonderful. It was just the break I needed to come into the new year feeling like I could be more creative and care a whole lot less. After all, I started this blog for me and I should be using my blog as a tool to make myself happier and share that happiness with the world.